I met her at work. I was havening a lot of trouble with my first wife and I had told her it was over. We now had to go through with the divorce. I remember the first night I took her out. I was paranoid that someone would see us together. It was a fear but a fear I wanted to experience. I can only tell you that now it was the urge for an adrenaline high. It was something I Couldn't understand at the time. I felt I was doing something wrong but didn't know how to get out of it! I was having a great time. We started doing things together and than I moved in with her. It was the 80's nothing wrong? We started to go drinking together and having a great time according to the worlds view of things? After a while of doing what we wanted to do and doing everything that we could together. She woke up one morning and needed to go to church. (see page on Born again).
That changed my life completely. I now had a vision in life and a view on things from a perspective, I never before was able to see. The LORD was doing things in my life that I thought was impossible. After a couple of weeks, I started to be convicted about how we were living. I needed to do something .I was in love and needed to make a commitment, I asked Diane to marry me. We got married in Sept of 1982. That was the beginning of a great time in my life and also a time of healing from all kinds of things.
We started to go to Sunday classes. This was the first time I had gone to Sunday school in my life. I started to learn about God ,and his word ,and what Jesus had done for me on the cross. I also learned about some things I never knew before. I thank all those that were a big help to me ,and never put me down. I learned about healings ,both spiritual and physical. I even had a chance to experience some of those healings. I had entered a world that I never knew before.
I had gone to church before but none of it made sense to me. I had thought that if you go to church you were a Christian. Nobody ever told me it was a personal relationship with Christ that made you a Christian. That you had to give yourself over to him in body, spirit, and soul. You had to let him become the master and you the slave. A lot of people have trouble with what I just said ,because of pride! They want to be in charge of there life. Well I did and it didn't get me anywhere. I didn't know how to have a relationship with myself, let alone somebody else.
It is important that you get in touch with a church that preaches the Bible and not man's doctrine. If you seek you shall find! There are many churches out there that are preaching Gods word ,find one. Be there every time the door is open, get involved, and you will find what you are looking for. A peace that only our LORD can give to you.